Confessions of a Shopoholic

Sorry it's been so long, Graduate school is kicking my behind. Something really serious that I want to discuss is a habit that I have. I have had it for a while and am completely unsure of how to manage it. The habit is ...shopping. Mostly everyone who knows me knows that I like to shop. I shop while I am at work, I shop when I go visit my family at home, I even shop when I get bored but it has to end.

Most people think it is easy to stop and just don't buy anything for a while but it is easier said than done. I realize that shopping fills a void in my life. Although I have a great love interest and a good support system, part of my past demons constantly haunt me. When I was younger, I was never the good looking or well dressed guy. I was always the guy that just looked and dressed "OK." Today, people notice me, even if only for my clothes. I always have people ask me "where did you that" or "how did you put that outfit together.'

I have decided that I cannot do this anymore. It just isn't smart. I love the clothes and the fashion but I have to learn to leave it behind. I have a good heart and a good soul. The clothes are only materialistic things that only reflect a small part of me. I cannot seek attention based on clothing or physical appearance. It is faulty.

I know their are other people who experience this just as I do. Just know... your not alone. Next time you realize that a friend of yours buys clothes and other things excessively, stop and ask yourself why do you think they are doing it. Their is generally more under the surface than you think..